The Downside of Happiness By Kathleen Lawless #kathleenlawless
I think it would be better for my writing career if I wasn't so darn happy.
Say what? you ask. Everyone wants to be happy.
However, I find it far easier to write when I am overflowing with angst. Churning emotions are very conducive to several things useful to a writer. One is self-analysis. Why do I feel this way? Which transfers very easily to 'Why do my characters feel this way?' And since I like to make my characters suffer, if I'm suffering it's a gimme they are as well.
I started writing after the death of my mother when I was a teenager. It was cheaper and more accessible than therapy and I discovered I really enjoyed writing. I had a lot to say and work through and filled reams of paper with words that no one besides me ever read.
Then I got married and soon was unhappy. I started writing again, commercially this time with an eye to sell. Did I find escape from reallity in my writing? Absolutely! Financial success, which I dreamed of right from the start, would also mean I wasn't dependent on a husband to support myself and three children.
I finally sold my first book just as my marriage was grinding to a very painful end. So there I was, a single mom, reinventing myself and trying not to starve in the process. Truly excellent for the writing muse. The whole undertaking led to the publication of more than twenty books and novellas, while the single life provided lots of material.
Then I fell in love.
The well dried up.
I no longer wanted to angst and anazlyze.
I wanted to run hand-in-hand along the beach with my love. To stare into the depths of his mesmerizing gaze and know I am the luckiest girl in the world. to dip strawberries in chocolate. To create decadent meals for two. To plan fabulous outings and vacations.
What I didn't want to do was write.
Thus I was forced to reinvent myself one more time. Allow the happiness to spill forth and re-fill the well. To write from a very good place.
It's not so hard.
I don't know why it took me this long to figure out. Feelings and emotions, good and bad, negative and positive, are all grist for the mill. So here I am, the happy writer. No suffering required.
Kathleen Lawless is delighted to find happiness has led to an exciting idea for a seven book series. Stay tuned.... In the meantime she is proud of her previous works. Everyone comes out of them happy, the way life is meant to be. Check out her website www.kathleenlawless.com to download a free novella.